Breaking through to the otherside

Wow....February was a rough one for us here. We all came down with a serious case of the February funk! I must say last week I nearly threw in the homeschool towel and the dreaded P word was uttered...Public School...(shudder). I was turning into the type of mother I despise...I began to understand why animals eat their young. It seemed no matter what I tried T would not stay focused and do his schoolwork. I was screaming constantly and if I believed in corporal punishment it would have happened! I was overcome with frustration and guilt...who was this raving lunatic I was becoming...homeschooling was not worth ruining my relationship with my child over. Instead of giving up I took an giant step backwards and a deep breath inward. T and I sat down and had a very serious and loving conversation about continuing this journey together. In the end we both decided that homeschooling is the best path for our family. I explained to T we were partners in this adventure....ultimately he must take responsibility for his own education. I am merely his guide. The balance of our homeschool had become seriously skewed, I had become the domineering teacher and T the cowering student. I believe real education can only happen when your desire for knowledge is self driven not imposed. I was single handedly destroying my sons love of learning. Thankfully I was able to see the error of my ways and understand that this thing called homeschooling is a marathon not a sprint. This week we were grateful to see the return of March and merriment to our home. I hear spring may be not very far behind!